“muJ ko XkIN hY/ swc kihqI QI/ jo BI aMmI kihqI QI/ jb myry bcpn ky idn Qy/ cFd py prIaF rihqI QI” ieh kfivk sqrF ipwCy ijhy pihlI vfr cMzIgHV `c afey mÈhUr Èfier qy gIqkfr jfvyd aKqr ny iek smfroh ivwc afpxI kivqf `c suxfAuNdy hoey khIaF. Aus ny dwisaf ik ies mukfm `qy phuMcx ivwc Aus dI mF dy ivakqIqv df bhuq vwzf hwQ hY. Auh jo kuJ vI iËMdgI `c bxy hn Aus ipwCy AunHF dI mF df hI afÈIrvfd hY.
dosqo! Aus smfroh ivwc mYN vI Èfml sF. ieh vfk suxidaF sfr hI bcpn dIaF keI XfdF myry iËhn ivwc qfËf ho geIaF. ienHF XfdF ivwc mF df ichrf bhuq hI aihm sQfn rwKdf hY. jy scmuwc mF ny sfnUM iËMdgI ijAux df sbk nf pVHfieaf huMdf, kxk dy dfixaF vFg Grft dy puVF ivwcoN nf lMGfieaf huMdf. kwpVCfx nf kIqf huMdf, iek pYNguien smuMdrI pMCI dI mF vFg afpxy bwcy nUM qYrnf isKfAux Kfqr TFTF mfrdy smuMdr `c Dwkf nf idwqf huMdf qF Èfied asIN vI rul jFdy. dunIaF dy smuMdr dIaF lihrF `c ikqy guafc jFdy. bcpn qoN hI mYN mF nUM bhuq pfieaY. jy kdy koeI muÈkl af jfxI qF ipqf jI bhuq jld Gbrf jFdy sn. icVicVy ho jFdy. buVbuVfAuNdy sn, hux kI hovygf. asIN kI krFgy! pr mF ny hmyÈf sMXm vrqx leI kihxf. hOslf dyxf. jld hI muÈkl df hwl inkl jfx df Brosf dyxf. Aus ny hIlf krnf. asIN sfQ dyxf. swcmuwc hwl inkl vI jfxf. myrI mF korI anpVH hY. Aus ny kdy skUl jf ky nhIN dyiKaf. iksy mwT `coN koeI iswiKaf nhIN leI. iPr vI mF dy ivcfrF qy ivvhfrF ny mYnUM bhuq hI pRBfivq kIqf.
bcpn ivwc jdoN koeI glqI krdf qF myrI mF mYnUM iJVkdI. mfrdI-kuwtdI pr mYN roNdf nhIN sI. jdoN mYN nf roxf qF Aus ny hor mfrnf! iPr mfrnf… qy bs mfrdy jfxf… qd qk mfrdy rihxf jd qwk mYN kurlf nf AuTxf! cIkF nf ÈurU kr dyxIaF. aFZ guaFZ nf iekwTf kr lYxf. jdoN cIkF mfrnIaF, kurlfAuxf qF mF ny mYnUM hor mfrnf. cpyVF DwPy mfrdyy jfxf. vfr vfr ieh vfk duhrfAuxf, gwbI cuwp! jy afvfË kwZI qF! mYN qyrI igwcI mroV idaFgI! GsItdy hoey aMdr lY jfxf. iPr ihwk nfl lf ky Kud roxf qy mYnUM cuwp krvfAuxf. qd mYnUM mF `qy bhuq guwsf afAuNdf. socdy ikho ijhI mF mfrdI vI hY! rox vI nhIN idMdI! pr iPr mYnUM smJ af igaf ik Auh ieMJ ikAuN krdI sI? ikAuN mfrdI sI iËafdf! ikAuN nhIN rox dyxf cfhuMdI sI. myry rox dI afvfË ikAuN nhIN inklx dyxf cfhuMdI. drasl Auh cfhuMdI sI ik mYN mËbUq bx jfvF iËMdgI `c cfhy ijMnIaF mrËI aOkVF qy muÈklF afAux ikMny hI phfV ikAuN nf tuwtx. ikqy iQVk nf jfvF! myry rox dI afvfË koeI nf suxy! koeI hmdrdI nf jqfey! roxf kmËorI nf bx jfvy. lokF dI hmdrdI df mohqfj nf bx jfvF. lok ivcfrf nf kihx. qrs nf Kfx! mYN ikqy qrsXog iËMdgI nf apxf lvF!
dosqo! mF dI Aus mfr sdkf hI hux iksy hflfq ivc avwl qF mYN roNdf nhIN hF pr jy roxf pY vI jfvy qF rox dI afvfË nhIN huMdI. ieh anmol qohPf Aumr Br Xfd rwKFgf.
awj mYN socdf hF ik ikvyN ho geI sI mF nUM iËMdgI dI ieMnI smJ! ikAuN bxfAuxf cfhuMdI sI Auh sfnUM mËbUq iensfn! Èfied ies dy ipwCy vI iek ieiqhfs hY. ijvyN hI mYN hoÈ sMBflI! dunIaF nUM smJx lwgf. mF-ipE nUM pCfxn lwgf! aFZ-guaFZ nUM afpxy mF-ipAu nfl mycx lwgf qF mYN dyiKaf ik myrI mF qF pUrn hY pr myry ipqf jI apUrn hn. hornF bwicaF dy ipqf vFg do hwQF dy nhIN sgoN iek hwQ dy mflk sn. aDUry sn. aMghIx sn. iPr keI vfr pfpf jI dI hwz bIqI suxI. smJx dI koiÈÈ kIqI. hOly hOly smJ afAuxI ÈurU hoeI. myry ipqf jI POj ivwc ispfhI sn. ivafh qoN do sfl bfad sflfnf CuwtI dOrfn iek hfdsy ivwc afpxf Kwbf hwQ gvf bYTy. AunHF idnF dy kfnUMn muqfbk srkfr ny pYnÈn idwqI qy Gr Byj idwqf. jdoN Auh hwQ df apryÈn krvf ky Gr vfps prqy qF sB qoN pihlF Auh sfzI mF kol hI gey. AuhnUM bfhr iek iekFq QF lY gey qy ikhf, “qUM ajy jvfn hY.” sohxI suxwKI hY. vwzI gwl ieh ajy sfzy koeI bwcf vI nhIN. mYN qF aMghIx ho igaf. Èfied qyrI rwiKaf pUrI qrHF nhIN kr skFgf. qYnUM hor pqIaF vFg sfrf kuJ muhweIaf nhIN krvf pfvFgf. qYnUM lokIN qfny mfrngy. tuMzy dI ËnfnI kih ky itwcrF krngy. sO qUM cfhy qF mYnUM Cwz ky jf skdI hY. mYN ilKqI dy idaFgf. qUM afpxf ivafh iksy hor nOjvfn nfl krvf skdI hY. myrf kI hY! mYN qF mMg ky vI guËfrf kr lvFgf. iBKfrI bx jfvFgf. sfDU vflf colf pf lvFgf. pr mF ny Aus vyly bhuq hI dlyrfnf qy mhfnqf Biraf jvfb pfpf jI nUM idwqf, “dyK swjxf! do sfl ho gey qyry lV lwgI nUM! iek gwl dws? jy mYN aMghIx ho jFdI qF kI qUM mYnUM iqafg idMdf? pfpf jI dIaF awKF `c hMJU af gey. mUMhoN kuJ nf inkilaf. mF ny ikhf, Pyr mYN qYnUM ikMJ Cwz skdI hF! ikMJ qYnUM TokrF Kfx leI Cwz dyvF? ikvyN iksy hor nfl ivafh krvf lvF! agnI sfhmxy asIN donF ny Pyry ley hn. duK suK ivwc iek dUsry df sfQ dyx dy vcn idwqy hn! dyK swjxF! iek gwl qF pwkI, mMg ky qF iZwz Brnf nhIN! do hwQ rwb ny mYnUM idwqy hn. kI iqMn hwQ iml ky do jIaF df iZwz nhIN pfl skdy? mYN ikqy idhfVI-dwpf kr lfvFgI. mËdUrI kr lvFgI.
dosqo! Auh idn qy awj df idn mF kdy vI iËMdgI `c GbrfeI nhIN! nf hI sfnUM GbrfAux idwqf. asIN sfry iËMdgI dI rfh `qy azol cwldy rhy. iËMdgI dI jwdo-jihd ivwc agFh rhy. Èflf! awgy vI ijwqdy rhFgy! afmIn!